There is yet another complicating factor in classification and determination of sexuality in addition to other factors like the genetic, the hormonal, the emotional, the cyclical, the situational, the deliberative, the socially constructed, etc. I’ve known this for a long time but this morning I woke up with it pushing itself insistently into my mind. People can have different sexual orientations for each of their senses.
Personally, I am far more visually attracted to men, but it sometimes oscillates, especially on psychedelics. The over saturation of distorted female forms in the media I was exposed to in my adolescence has altered my sexuality on the visual level. Sometimes I realise I wouldn’t actually want to have sex with a lot of the men I check out, and often there’s an element of self-comparison / competitiveness involved.
I hate deodorant, perfume or aftershave on either sex so it’s difficult to make a judgment, but I like the smell of men’s sweat more than that of women‘s, but the other way around when it comes to breath.
On the tactile level I prefer women. This is complicated by the fact that I prefer to take the “lead” role in sex, for instance I instinctively hug a sexual partner around the waist rather than around their neck.
I’m not sure about my reaction to vocals. I like any sexy voice. I like both high-pitched and husky voices on women. Unlike most gay men I like soft voices on men that have a touch of femininity, as well as gruff voices. For some reason when I hear a woman having sex in a neighbouring apartment I react with jealousy and want to fuck the woman. I usually jack off.
The above with respect to my own reactions must be tempered thus. I think I’m an unusual case: a mostly gay man who has an extremely “heterosexual” 2D:4D ratio (ratio of the index finger to the ring finger). My EEG, as well as that of my mother’s, shows a lack of hemispheric coherence associated with autism and over-masculinised brains.